Bangkok, Thailand
This might a very difficult topic to write, because the heart-broken situation's just recently happened to me. I had never expected to be in a position of being dumped, but it happened. For whatever reason, the another party has decided to walk away from my life. No reason, no prediction, just happened. I've been struggling over my emotions for these months. Though, it's not completely healed yet, I'm trying to suppress it, forget it, and changing my focus. However, fighting with the turmoil inside is not easy (right?) So, I've decided to just "LET HIM WALK AWAY" I can't let it go 100%, but I have to.
First of all, I feel so thankful for all the love & support from family, friends and followers who sent me messages on my Instagram@thequinoxfashion. I was really in a bad shape, but now I'm getting better. For all the girls/guys out there, if you are going through the same situation like me, STOP BLAMING YOURSELF. I was trying to figure out what could have gone wrong, or did I say something to upset another person? However, no matter how much you or me are trying to find the answer from this situation, you won't find one. Because, if she/he wants to walk away, they will need no excuse.
I was taught to say 'sorry' first, even though, I don't do anything wrong. You know, to show the respect. I tried so hard, my sincere apology and the commitment I wanted to offer, none has made anything better. I tried and tried and never gave up. Eventually, I had to battle with myself, in order to fight against reality "He wants to go, that's it. Stop lying to yourself" My love was pure and real, and I gave all my heart & soul. However, I've learnt my lesson in a hard way. Seriously now I just don't know what love is anymore. Maybe I've had my guard up just to protect myself from being hurt again. I wanted to get married, but I guess it's impossible. So, what to do? I guess I have just to let him go, and find his own happiness. I'm not angry, but I just don't understand anything. It feels like I'm left in the dark.. .Not only I feel disrespected, but also deeply hurt inside.
Anyway, I was told that "If people are meant to be with you, they will be. If not, they are not meant to be. People who want you will never make you feel sad. They will never make you feel like shit, no matter what. So if he/she wants to walk away, just LET THEM WALK" Don't judge, stop begging (like I did), don't lower yourself just to be treated like this.
