Dream or Family

Yesterday, I had a chance to be interviewed by Luna Vega regarding the topic about the difference between the fashion industry between Thailand and UK, as well as, some other topics such as The Equinox Fashion blogging experience, style, online retailers etc. During the interview, there were so many ideas, also honestly opinions toward the fashion industry in different perspectives popping up in my head.

Somehow, it has made me realize that I am extremely happy to be back home in Bangkok, Thailand because I can spend my time with my beloved family and 16 years old dog which grew up together with me. Therefore, the question is should I follow "Dream or Family"
(This is going to be the sincere voice of mine, and you guys may have different opinions which I don't really mind listening to.)
Some of us might know that I love blogging, it is my f*** life and that is the reason why I set off to Manchester, United Kingdom in order to pursue my career because I think that UK is one of the biggest places for bloggers like us. I have had fun during London Fashion Week since 2013 to the latest, and I have received a really good opportunity collaborating with brands, as well as, a photo shoot with other forefront bloggers of UK. Everything's going great. Manchester is a great city and the blogger community is lovely, however, I have felt lately that it is still small for me. I grew up in big city life and Manchester is only 1/4 of where I am from. I have done everything strategically like what I have planned because I really have a strong passion for this industry. I am not gonna lie but most of us wanna become bigger people, gain reputation and more income.

Me too, I wanna become influential blogger who inspire others not just showing my #ootd. I feel really blessed and proud of myself of how far I have become. I have started writing my blog with my own two hands and now it grows potentially. I have adapted what I have learned from my MA in marketing and applied to improve the effectiveness of my website. Idgaf about who's competing with who because I only compete with myself. And I don't care to use f words in this blogosphere because it is my voice, and I am not a girly person anyway.
I have been running my online store called Hidden Treasure, selling quirky earrings. It is fun to come up with marketing plan and constantly improve my strategy. It maybe a bit slow but its process is going with the flow because I have to make sure that every stage is run effectively. It's great tbh because I feel more becoming a business woman :)
I have always wanted to move to either New York or London to pursue my career in blogging, however, I have been thinking over and over again if this decision is the right one. For me, career always comes first but now I am in Bangkok with my family, I feel really happy. For some reasons, it's kinda like hesitating my choices about moving and blogging. I only live once and I know it. I need to push myself and make this dream not to be just a dream, however, I feel really sad to make up my mind because if I can find a job and move to somewhere, that means I will never be able to see my family that often.
I really don't know what to do with my life, lots of confusions going on in my head. Or maybe I will see how things go when I'm back to Manchester next Saturday. We will see..