I have gained weight since I moved to Manchester due to the amount of food I heavily consumed during 2015, and I am extremely not happy about it. Whenever I look at my own reflection in front of the mirror, I feel quite discouraged to wear whatever I want because of that unwanted tummy, and bigger thighs I didn't ask for. Well, I guess we all have been through the moment, when we just can't wear the same old favourite jeans anymore. When I was in Bangkok, Thailand, I was skinnier than this because I literally worked out every day, also the food was more variety than here in the UK. However, I just cannot blame the food anyway, no one has to take the responsibility but myself. Recently, I have started to feel better about my body weight because I have been to the gym more often, while setting my mind with a 'can-do' attitude in order to bring my old body back.
MINDSET IS THE MOST IMPORTANT FOR WEIGHT CONTROL
To be honest, it is not that easy to not think about what the society has expected the ideal women to be. I do not know if you notice, but I love wearing over-sized clothes because I want to cover my body which I call it 'fat' The photos on The Equinox Fashion's Instagram look perfectly fine, yet there are a lot of thoughts going on in my head. Every day, I have to look at my self-reflection in order to see how big my thighs are."Really, why they are so fucking big." says myself while pinching the disgusting cellulite I can spot. It happens during the photo shoot too. I have to ask my boyfriend every time whether I look fat in the photos 'babe am I fat? babe can we take it again, I look so fat' These words keep repeating over and over, sometimes it makes me frustrated with myself. However, I have made a decision to feel better about myself since I can't just take it anymore. I hate myself cursing my own body, it just sounds so horrible. At least, I don't use a photoshop to make my body look slim, and I will never do that.
Therefore, I have replaced such negative thinking to a positive one, and started to take care of myself better than ever. It makes me feel better about myself, as well as, encourages me to wear whatever I want without caring what others going to think about my clothes. Believe it or not, just one decision has completely boosted my confidence in every aspect.
DAILY WORKOUT ROUTINE
I have never had an excuse not to work out, only when I am sick. Call me crazy, I go to the gym at 11 pm almost every day. I love jogging around the neighbourhood, but it is too cold. So, going to the gym is the best thing for me right now. I DO NOT SKIP ANY MEALS, but I reduce the portion, also carb and dessert. I have been to the gym for probably 3 or 4 years, but Youtube is one of my most effective workout routines because there are a lot of Kickboxing videos I LOVE! I love doing kickboxing, I love to feel the pain in the next day, it is a good feeling as it assures that the muscles are totally worked out.
At the gym, I love walking on a treadmill, but my choice is to set up the inclination to level 10-13. It sounds tough, but it burns calories faster than a normal running (for me). Besides, I love doing some muscle workouts such as legs, and arms. In short, a total body workout is a must.
Trust me, nothing is better than feeling good about yourself :)
Trust me, nothing is better than feeling good about yourself :)
