I have been listening to Justin Bieber [rock cover by Twenty One Two] and so into it lately. "If you like the way you look that much, then maybe you should go and f*** yourself" <-- Especially, this part, because it's so related to my relationship experience in the past. Maybe, I am not that kind of talkative person, or a girl who tells the world what she has been through in the past. However, here is the post I am willing to share some of my relationship nightmares, which got me stronger nowadays. So, thanks to all those lessons really. Why I am telling you this? Because, you may or may not learn from it, and all I want to say is that "LOVE YOURSELF" is the most important thing you should do before anything else.
YOU DO NOT NEED A GUY TO TELL YOU WHAT YOU SHOULD/SHOULDN'T LOOK LIKE.
Seriously, you don't need a man to criticize on your look or what you are wearing. I love listening to feedback, but this is just annoying (for me). I was in a relationship when the guy seemed to love judging me all the time. "Why your nails are painted black?", "Why you don't wear that skirt?", "Why you need to wear a makeup like that?"...C'mon, this's frustrating. Girls, what you wear is none of anybody's business. So, just stay true to who you are! Life is too short to be like everyone else, right? I mean, as long as, you don't dress like going to the strip club in a daytime, that's totally ok.
WHEN YOU GIVE EVERYTHING TO THAT ONE PERSON, BUT NEVER RECEIVE THE SAME AFFECTION
I always be the person who try (too) hard in the relationship. I always be there, always help, and always willing to spend money on whatever he might like.
This is good and bad at the same time...You know, when you put so much effort on the guy you love, but he doesn't seem to give it back 100% just like you, it hurts. Especially, if the person who you are dating doesn't seem to care or text you as much as you text him, it only drives you nuts! Several times I was in the position of waiting for the messages 24/7 I was looking at my phone every 5 minutes, thinking either should I keep texting or stop being annoyance to him. I totally hated it, and I felt like I didn't deserve to be treated like that. What I did was something I would never forgive myself, because I felt so ashamed of my feelings towards the person who treated me like I didn't exist. It took me a week to get a grip of myself, and finally back to the same person. So, ladies, if he doesn't treat you like the way you treat him, just leave. Stop lying to your feelings.
These days, I've felt like I really love myself. There's no point of looking back to the past, because now is 'now' All of those shitty days have taught me to be a stronger person, who doesn't need to rely on the relationship I do not want. I get it, being in a relationship is good because you will always have someone to love and to hold on to, right? But, you can also being in love with yourself, because YOU GOT YOUR BACK girls.
