To tell you the truth, I have had a really tough week (s), a really tough tough one that makes me feel as if I want to stop thinking about everything. I wish I could tell my head to stop producing such disgusting thoughts, curiosity, etc. There's nothing about work though, I am talking about 'people' here. Have you ever had the moment, which you wish you could disappear somewhere, where nobody knows who you are? I have. Apart from social media that made me feel overwhelmed 2 weeks ago, now I am dealing with another new challenge, which involved in those who have so much of bullshit to tell others. My instinct is never wrong, and it pissed me the f*** off when others have a distorted perception about me. I have had to deal with this stuff week after week, but now I guess I am fine. Why? Because I have decided to let such toxic go. Like they say "Confidence is silence, insecurity is loud"
YOU DON'T NEED APPROVAL FROM OTHERS
I have been reading a book call "Detox your ego" and I am in LOVE with it. It is such a good book, like a self-reflection that speaks my emotion. When we need others to accept us, we always seek for every evidence just to boost our self-confident and being loved. However, don't you think it is too much? When we want people to love us so bad that we will try every way just to hear the beautiful words from their mouths. Really?...The book says that such behavior is a certain level of ego. I am not going to lie, but I have a high one (no offence). We seek for the compliments, too much to let the feelings run wild in our hearts. I think this is true because that is how I feel right now. I need others to understand, and to say 'yes' to my opinions. That is a sign of 'too much' In fact, we don't need that much, do we? We can't tell 100 people to love us because we all have different thoughts. Some may like, while some may jealous. Some may love, some may hate. That is the fact. Stop being protective about ourselves and be more open for the unexpected stuff. We are who we are, and we don't need any more bullshit in our lives.
HOW TO DEAL WITH THOSE WHO TALK SHIT?
It happens in every industry, including fashion. He says this, she says that, etc. Do I like it? No, I am not. But can I control others? No, I can't. This is the fact. Let's be honest, shall we? It has happened to me at my work place, and I can feel it. I am not a talkative person, and I don't even mess around with others, still there always be someone who wants to be you. So, he/she will do everything to take you down. This is the competition. Jealousy is the cause, and in my case, it is. It made me frustrated a few hours ago, but the thing is "those who believe in the rumours, while they don't even know who we are, are such an idiot" I was tempted to start a fire, but what will I get afterward? I would rather be silence, and let them talk, well just keep talking because I don't really care. If those who listen believe in whatever they are told, then good luck with your life 'faggot'.
Skirt- Alice's Pig